HecTiC WeEk/ FRi FiNaLe/ BriNgiNg OuT ThE FaCeTs oF a PeRsOn

...Lo aNd BeHoLd...

Pee-ing Togather.. :)

This week was treacherously long as compared to any other week. I had 3 whole nights without sleep. However, I knew it would all come to pass soon and it did. Amen.

Sometimes people have this tendency of treating people who are close to them way worst than they treat their aquaintances. I guess they already have the assurance that the people who are close to them will never leave. Yet sometimes it is the other person who is almost always overly critical and nitty-gritty. Guess every relationship is formed on the basis of understanding and the acceptance of everything good and bad that comes along with it.

Friday was a good day full of weird meals. In the morning I had breakfast with Jelvin. On the menu, 1 sausage bun and a cup of tea. During lab, Gwen bought me a tuna sandwich that served as lunch. At 3pm I went to the YIH clinic with brother Kevin. At about 4.30pm he bought me Shushi after which I went for my Japanese lesson. After lesson I met up with Ashwin. We went for a run around from TH to Science. After the run, we spent about an hour in his room, me singing songs and him playing the guitar.

JieRen came over to KE7 to pick me up at 9pm after which we met Bong for dinner. Since it was quite late and many restaurants were closed, we headed down to Lau Pasat for dinner. After dinner we went to watch My Best Friend's Girl. JieRen's idea. Dunnoe what he was trying to hint... :)

Anyways, the movie is really unsuitable for the young with nude and sexual scenes every now and then. The brand of comedy was funny in a sexually sick kind of way. Yet as always there was an underlying message which I'll leave to everyone else to decipher. I'll personally give the movie 3 stars out of 5 stars.

After the movie, Jieren drove me back to hall. I spent half the night trying to clear up some homework after which I chatted with Wynne for a period of time. Poor girl, victim of Insomia.... :)

I've come to terms with the fact that different people trigger different sides of an individual. For example, wit Jelvin or Patrick, my spiritual self is triggered. With JieRen and Bong I tend to become more matured and righteous. With Halim, I just behave like a clown. With Gwen, I behave like an intellectual scientist. Ashwin brings out the innocent and musical side in me. Different facets of the whole character of an individual.

...aNgeLs BrOuGhT mE HeRe...

AbStRaCt

...Lo aNd BeHoLd...


Sometimes, I think that there is no one person around who fully understands the depth of my thoughts. No one understands that there is some part of me in everything I say, in everything I do. I have learnt to love selflessly. I wonder what it feels like to be loved selflessly by anyone at all.


Nothings greater than the rush that comes with your embrace

In this world of loneliness I see your face

Yet everyone around me thinks that I'm going crazy

My hearts crippled by the vein that I keep on closing

Oh you cut me open


...aNgeLs BrOuGhT mE HeRe...

CogNiTivE cLaRiTy/ TaLk/ DaTiNg SeRviCe

...Lo aNd BeHoLd...


I just had a most motivating and intellectual talk with Jelvin. I guess you cannot the vanguish turmoil within you if you do not talk to someone. On the other end, understanding other people's lives and their trials and tribulations also serves as a reality check for you. Sadly, not everyone is capable of conversing to such depth whilst demonstrating thorough understanding of the topic.


My level head just asked me to find a senior date from my block to bring to the hall dinner next week. I'm going to paste a paper on the seniors' doors saying ' Single and Availavble Bachelor, up for grabs....' Like that is really ever going to happen.


Mugging for my final test tomorrow. I really really want to reiterate that I am grateful for the talk with Jelvin. I have never been so clear in my thoughts this semester. Thanks bro... :)


Going for dinner with Jie Ren and Bong tomorrow. Boys' night out. I am going to go CRAZY!!!! and dance on the streets after a freaking hectic week. The company is just nice too. Too bad porn-surfing caused Caleb to have sore eyes hindering him from joining us....


...aNgeLs BrOuGhT mE HeRe...

MiNd OvEr MaTtEr

...Lo aNd BeHoLd...


I was just looking through my old posts and realised that my very blog bears testimony to many of the new friends and relationships I found along the way. Just wonder if those people share the same sentiments.

Let the battle begin....


...aNgeLs BrOuGhT mE HeRe...

BuFfeT wiF JaP FreNs/ ViRtUeS

...Lo aNd BeHoLd...


Human beings always have this tendency of going all out for people whom mean alot to you despite you being insignificant to them vis-a-vis neglecting others who care for you to a much greater extent.


Just went for a run and did my sets of chin-ups. The KE7 people must think I'm some form of an intruder. I should randomly walk into rooms and start saying Hi...!!!... School is starting to get very interesting. I love my physics buddies. Even though we don't see each other as often, they always have this warm welcoming feeling towards me.


The BBQ with my Japanese friends last night was fun as expected. The was alot of food that was left though. Sad. Takeshi, Satoke, Ruriko, Yumi and Yuki are all very nice people. Friendliness is really a virtue.


On certain days when I am free I like to take a step back and look at the world from a third person's perspective, even upon myself. Many a time I do not really like what I observe. Yet, sometimes you get so habitually deep into something that it may prove futile to change or abolish. Yet sometimes, you treat that 'habit' to be wrong because you look upon it from the wrong perspective. Patience and understanding here, are virtues once again that I will try to uphold at all costs.


...aNgeLs BrOuGhT mE HeRe...

UpDaTeS

...Lo aNd BeHoLd...


Looks like sporting season is entering my life once again.


Soccer training is getting more and more interesting. Will be getting my jersey soon. Am supposed to go for a game today at 4pm but will not go. Racing against time to get my lab report done. Will be exposed to an open tournament somewhere in October. Hopefully I know some moves by then.


Training for atheletics and road relay with my hall team starts on Monday. Can't wait to meet new people in hall because I haven't had the chance to meet anyone yet. Still in search of my gym cum running buddy. Contemplating if I should go for the Standard Chartered Marathon with JieRen. Guess I'll register soon anyway.


The tennis coach called me to tell me that he has a slot reserved for 2 already. But I think I'm going to forsake it this semester. Priority lies in studies.


Need to get my phone fixed as well. Too soft. Or maybe my hearing has deteriorated.


Ok, back to doing my report. Hajimemashoo ..... :)


...aNgeLs BrOuGht mE HeRe...

I wOuLd iF I cOuLd

...Lo aNd BeHoLd...


If I could take away your sorrows I would
If I could lift your spirit higher I would
Yet I know, there must be something right
in a bond that survived so much plight


Times may be easy
Times can be hard
Still I know that they will all come to pass
Translate into memories that will linger and last


Rest assured, be quietly confident of
A bond, a feeling that has been engraved into the heart



...aNgLeS bRoUgHt mE HeRe...

MoTiVaTiOn/ eXpLaNaTiOn

...Lo aNd BeHoLd...


Someone very close to me told me yesterday that I have recently harvested a sense of negativity which is not my usual self. I have always been Mr Positive. I guess everyone needs a reminder every now and then when life starts to move at a faster, more taxing pace.


On a side note, my bro and my other close friend also questioned me, why is it that you are so stressed. Everyone else in your module cohort is probably as stressed as you? The answer to that is that I missed a major basic module in semester 1 last year which is largely required in two of my modules this semester. Hence, I have to work twice as hard as everyone to figure out the lessons and lecture notes. Language also adds on significantly to the load.


However, I'm more focussed and directed now. There is no point in feeling distraught, disjointed over what you think may be the outcome. Give it your very best. At the end of the day, there should be no room for any 'what ifs.'


...aNgeLs BrOuGhT mE HeRe...

PaiNfuL MoRniNg

...Lo aNd BeHoLd...


The first thing in the morning, I duck under my table to pull the plug of the printer and while straightening my body, I knock the back my head at the ledge of the table. Now there's blood on the table and my t-shirt.


After meeting QianWen, B.K. and Ash in Temasek Hall last night I jogged back to hall. Then I began my mugging with Patrick and Jelvin only to sleep at 4am.


Someone you care about and someone who cares about you in return will never pose a burden to you even if you see him or her for everyday of your life. Some bonds or relationships are much more deep than one could imagine. Many a time people fail to realise what they have until they are on the verge of losing it. But of course, if the bond was strong in the first place, the chance of losing it or the fear of it being diluted by time and distance would be negligible.


...aNgeLs BrOuGhT mE HeRe...

cOpiNg & EnDuRiNg

...Lo aNd BeHoLd...


Its 3am and I haven slept for the past 24 hours. Yet I feel refreshed because of the support of my bro, my friends and other people around me. Was very touched when Jelvin and Patrick msn-ed me and msg-ed me respectively to check how I was. Aini and Gwen also contacted me saying 'Jia You'. Of course, Halim, my best buddy since JC also gave his strand of encouraging words. Larry, Bong and Jie Ren all gave me some motivation by signalling that they are there for me.


Huimin on the other hand bought me a box of chocolates from Australia. My favourite thing in the whole wide world.


Everyone must understand that any and every calamity that comes upon us is a test of our patience, our resilience and our persistence. With such good people around me, I bet this values will eventually take life in me. Hopefully....


...aNgeLs BrOuGht mE HeRe....

SuPpEr

...Lo aNd BeHoLd...


Last night I went out for supper with Kevin. Ended up drinking more than one can of beer that tasted disgusting. Yet it felt somewhat good. Guess everything feels heavenly when people are stressed and have academically, socially and emotionally oscillating minds, just like me. What's more I was in the good company of a brother. So beer like piss didn't pose as a problem. Sad to say the night life in Singapore as my eyes perceived last night was void of pretty ladies. Sad. Amazingly, I felt all topsy turvy after the beer even though it wasn't alot. I could think rationally but couldn't really walk in a straight line. I guess that's what you get for eating half a mooncake for breakfast, half for lunch and not eating dinner altogather.


...aNgeLs BrOuGhT mE HeRe...

LoNg DaY

...Lo aNd BeHoLd...


Walking to KE7 from Temasek Hall was very troubling last night with my heavy bag and aching shin. But the cool breeze made it feel much better.


Slept at 4 last night trying to finish my tutorial. Woke up at 8 this morning to travel to arts and submit my assignment. In a frenzy, I forgot to put on my belt again and sprained my ankle while climbing the stairs. Now i'm limping Loke.


Intensive experimentation from 11am to 12pm. Physics tutorial from 12pm to 1pm. More intensive experimentation from 1pm to 3pm. Physics Viva- Where you get questioned and grilled by the lecturers from 3pm to 5pm. Finally, Japanese tutorial, Katakana Quiz from 5pm to 6pm.


Jie Ren asked me out to Wallas, still contemplating. But I think I'll miss it. Way too much to study. Any wrong move will send me tumbling down. If only I could get some rest..... :(


...aNgeLs BrOuGhT mE HeRe...

ThOrOuGh ThUrsDaY/ tHe BesT oF tHe BeSt

...Lo aNd BeHoLd...


Japanese is really a very hectic module with the vast number of tests. All the physics modules in year two are also much tougher. I'm still trying as much as I can. If I could just get enough sleep for one day then all my thoughts would be cleared.


Today, one of the most important people in my life bought me mooncakes. I love mooncakes. Though I was at a lost of words at that point in time and was unable to express my gratitude, the person knows how much that gesture meant to me.


Everyone has a family (most people), everyone can find friends, many people can find their other half in the opposite sex but many a time people fail to find the one true person that truly understands them and knows their every gesture, their every intention, their every mood.
From the bottom of my heart, Salute to my brother.... **


...aNgeLs BrOuGhT mE HeRe...

FiRsT DaY iN KE7 / SuRPriSe ApPeaRanCe

...Lo aNd BeHoLd...


I woke up early yesterday morning to mug for my Japanese vocabulary test. After mugging, I went to check into King Edward 7 Hall. Yes, it is true. I was once a Temasekian but now I'm a member of the KE7 family. All that said, hall X or hall Y, we are still one NUS.


I went Harbourfront in the evening to buy some hall necessities. Spent the rest of my time cleaning the new room. It wasn't very dirty to start with, but I cleaned it all the same.


I was pleasantly surprised by Kevin who came to see if I had properly settled in and needed help with anything at all. He's certainly the manifestation of an ideal brother in a person.
Salute bro... ***


Now, that all these pending issues have been settled, its time for me to get down to business. Study..!! Or was it club...?!! Come on, remain focussed.... Study..!! ...er Club...?? ..... Study + Club = Scrub


...aNgeLs BrOuGhT mE HeRe...